News — trials of painting

One of the delights of painting with oils is the meandering journey that lets you experiment and fail. The small wins are precious and deliver joy. I have always had a buzz from learning, so painting feeds that in a quiet, understated way that keeps me curious. It's not just the activity that is so absorbing, it transports you to another world, it is also the thinking. The thinking requires not just a collective memory bank of skills, but an enquiring mind and willingness to take risks - what if I...?  It is a constant problem solving exercise and the search for resolutions can be taxing.  Even after all these years, there are conversations in my head about risk taking and rising to the challenge, underpinned by the "You CAN do this" mantra.

                                         

                                               

And what happens when the result is not even satisfactory? The task of 'making it right' can form a loop that becomes a bottomless rabbit hole of intense pushing. One is often unaware that this is taking over.  Step away, give both time and distance to the issue. Then refreshed, this could be hours or weeks later, judge it anew and matters have often shifted. Now that troublesome area is actually quite good, whilst the bit that you were pleased with before is alarmingly wrong!

With oils, time is your friend. I have painted with all the different media over the years - experimenting, playing and analysing each material and technique for its foibles. Each media has its own attractions and limits and finding one that connects is key to building a deep relationship. I first tried oil painting at an evening class I attended aged 19 - I timidly brushed the paint with little strokes from a little brush. At art college, oils were never discussed, whilst the more instantaneous acrylic paint was favoured. I returned to oils years later as my fascination with building texture and form on a 2D plane became a focus. A palette knife and thick oil paint now provide endless possibilities and happiness. But with oils, time is also not your friend if you are impatient. Impasto painting demands lengthy drying times which can be frustrating when the next layer of engagement is beckoning. I have learnt many times that muddiness awaits if you revisit a wet painting too soon. All that squishiness is delicious, but be aware of the trap of impatience.

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Letting go is one of the hardest things. A painting that just isn't working, but has delightful elements is a conundrum. Should I continue or just start again? When to push through and when to move on, is still a dilemma. It is at this point I ask myself "What is the value of continuing?" Obviously, the answer should inform the decision, but often there is a niggle remaining. Is that the vagaries of the creative brain or something else?  Ultimately, deciding is a choice only you can make. I have found that what one may consider helpful opinions from others, usually are most unhelpful.  Yes others views have value, but its the artist that must exercise omnipotence over their work. After all, a painting is an artist's statement of self expression.